I know you won’t see this letter 
because you’re off somewhere trying  to get better…
I hope you know you haven’t faded  behind your demons’ 
shadows and that someone unconditionally loves you.
I heard our song today, 
and was stung by jagged memories poisoned with nostalgia, 
I could taste your name in the corner of my cracked lips 
and the spaces between my fingers have eroded 
down to valleys kissed by droughts— 
Thirsty for your ghostlike touch. 
I’m still drifting away into the  unknown space— 
And all the whiskey and cigarettes  can’t fill your place, 
Instead, I see your stunning face in clouds of smoke 
floating away with every breath—I’m not so sure 
I have those many left. 
You are the masterpiece of life’s fucked up puzzle 
and I must admit, I’ve never met 
anyone who could make dying look so beautiful.

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  Introduction:
  Fuck you. And also, fuck me too. We’re not in this life together but that doesn’t mean we can’t come together. Turn the petty to prosperous.
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  Full of Yourself…as Opposed to Who?
  “You’re so full of yourself!” Like it’s a bad thing. Have they ever taken a moment to think about what the fuck that even means? I now love to respond with, “As opposed to who? Who else am I supposed to be full of? Beyoncé? I am proud and only wish to be full and filled with myself.”
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  All You Can Do is Laugh
  Crazy what happens when you get off your clown shit and get promoted to ringleader. I take joy in being a traveling circus.
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  Evil Eye 🧿
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  Beware
  I have been an Electrician…Constantly rewiring My neural pathwaysUnlearning Life lessonsThat were never explicitly taught. I learned how to read Braille subtextWith trembling fingertipsIn an environment Where I was forbidden To feel. I… Read more: Beware